That didn't take long at all

I'm barely 2dptrigger and it's practically all out of my system already.

I really didn't expect it to be out that quick. I suspect it will be all out by 4dptrigger. Whoa.

The worst of all

Can I just say, on the record.. I hate these Estrogen suppositories. The first day was absolutely horrible. I felt out of breath all day and incredibly nauseas. I woke from a dead sleep to run to the bathroom to vomit. I am so glad today is the last of them. This has seriously been the worst of the meds side effects.

In other news. Today was the beginning of testing out my trigger. And look at this!

The first positive test I've seen in over a year! Obviously this isn't a true positive because it's caused by the Ovidrel trigger from yesterday. We'll see how long it takes for it to leave my system. Hopefully we'll see ovulation tonight/tomorrow and start the dreaded 2ww!

The sitch.

Here's the situation. Monitoring did not go as I was expecting. I will say this time with the dildo cam was not very pleasant. It must be pretty sensitive up there. 

Right ovary- one mature 18 mm follie. 
Left ovary- no mature, one 15 mm follie. 
Lining- 6.4 not great, not bad. 

So the plan got changed. Since our office doesn't do IUI on the weekends, we got canceled and changed to timed intercourse. Which is okay with us. I am also doing an Estrogen suppository to help my lining a bit. I'll trigger tomorrow night and we'll have sex over the weekend. Then we just hope the extra boost from the meds is all we needed. 

We are more than okay with this new plan. 

That wasn't so bad

Well.. I just did my inject of gonal F. Totally not as bad as I thought it would be. The worst part was actually injecting the saline mixture. Mainly because I could feel it going in. The shot, totally not that bad. I didn't even feel it when I stuck it. I can't believe I was freaking out over it.

Now we wait and go in Thursday for monitoring and hopefully trigger that day too.

Anyways. Here's a video for your viewing pleasure of doing the inject and some pictures.

say wut?!

Yippee! Today was the last dose of Clomid. Saywhat?! I have to say, it wasn't nearly as bad as I was anticipating. From all the stories I've heard of mood swings, hot flashes, horrid headaches and others.. I am pleased to report I was lucky enough to only experience a dull headache and incredibly light hot flashes at night before bed. Nothing too crazy. 

Now we have to hope it did it's job and I respond well. Next up, an inject of Gonal F. On Monday. As in, two days from now. I can not believe how quick this is going. 

Before I know it, it's going to be IUI day. Woah. 

Let the games begin

Today marked the beginning of treatment. One day of clomid down, four more to go. Since we don't have any plans for the day, I'll just be waiting around for side effects to make their appearance. I'm really hoping they aren't horrible, but you never know. 

In other news... C thought it was a great idea to wake up at 5:30 this morning. 

I have no idea what this kid was thinking. I let him lay with me for a little bit before kicking him out... His idea of laying in bed was kicking me in my back. We have very different ideas of laying down. We'll have to work on this.

The plan

Baseline went well. Rather surprising though. Both ovaries looked great. Here's the surprising part... Left ovary.... 20 follicles. Right ovary...... A whopping 12. 

20?! TWENTY FREAKING FOLLICLES?!?!? I'm baffled. 

Obviously none  of which are mature or anything. They're just there. Hanging out. Like no big deal.. Coconuts on a palm tree. 

Plan is set. We'll do 50 mg of Clomid + 75 units gonal-F + trigger + IUI. Then pray like hell it works. 

I have finally come to terms, I think, with moving onto treatment. Less anxiety about everything now. Talking with our Dr. really helped to sort my thoughts and better understand so there is less unknown. I'll be heading back to the hospital to pick up all the meds soon. Our pharmacy happens to be under renovations, causing insane wait times. 

This is pretty aggressive treatment for the first go round. I was a little uncomfortable with this until I found out that if this cycle doesn't work, we go back on baseline wait list... Another 3 months. After hearing this, I was very much okay with going as aggressive as we are. I hate the fact that our clinic is the only one that we can use with our insurance. Le sigh. Such is life. 

Meds! Yay!

This could be fun

1. Coffee, tea or soda? Pepsi please.

2. Do you live in an urban or rural area? I would say urban. 

3. What was the last item you purchased other than food? Good question, food is usually what I buy.

4. Do you subscribe to a daily newspaper? Nope.

5. Who called you on the phone last? S. Calling to make sure we were okay b/c C set off our alarm.

6. What is your favorite TV show? Hm. I do enjoy some trashy shows. 

7. What is your favorite TV news source? I don't have a favorite. 

8. Credit or Debt? Neither. I hate 'em both. 

9. Paper, plastic or do you bring your own bags? Plastic. I have a ton of those recycle bags but always forget them.

10. What Thrift store do you usually donate to and why? Our local military shop. Mainly for convenience. 

11. When you shop in person, do you usually frequent the mall, specialty boutiques or ???  Outlet shops. 

12. What is your favorite online shopping source? I like Old Navy. AE for their pants.

13. Clothes, shoes or house stuff?  House stuff. It's so bare here.

14. Hair. Home dye, professional dye or natural? All of the above.

15. Do you keep a journal? Only this thing. 

16. Do you have a bucket list? I do not. 

17. What is your least favorite chore? Dished. I did them as a kid and hate it. 

18. What book are you reading? 123 Magic. Sorta.

Anxiety

Oye. I have gone back and forth about IUI or TI. I have been have huge anxiety issues over IUI lately. The closer we get to treatment, the more anxiety ridden I am. I think I've finally come to the decision of doing a first cycle of TI with meds to see how it goes and how my body reacts to the meds.

I just don't feel ready for IUI at this point. I know H isn't ready either, though he is on board with IUI. I think we just weren't prepared to get to this point in time.

Baseline can't get here any slower.. These days just go by so slow.

Official

It's official. We're moving on to treatment cycles. Spotting from two days ago turned into full on period.   Yesterday I started BCP to set me up for baseline u/s next week. After the u/s we'll find out exactly what the plan is.

Shit just got way real.

10

Today is 10 dpo. I'm trying not to get my hopes up. My temp is still up and I have yet to see the tall-tale pimple of impending AF.

I picked up some cheapie tests from the store today. I'm going to use all my strength to hold out until Tuesday. We'll see how well that goes.

In other news. IUI is coming up. Baseline is only a week and a half away. I'm also going to a Pitbull and Kesha concert in two weeks with my mom. As well as the fair this weekend! I'm so excited, I love the fair so much. C is going to love it so much this year now that he can play some of the games and do the rides.

Gosh I am so excited for this month, next month, and August.